Today was one of those days..... I didn't post yesterday because, guess what.......yesterday was one of those days too! I can't seem to get out of this funk. This funk has lasted a little longer than past funks. I attribute some of it to my antidepressants being switched around. Six years ago I started on Zoloft, switched to Lexapro two years later and stayed on that for 2 1/2 years, then Pristiq (this one really messed me up more than ANY others)..... and now I am on Wellbutrin. So far... the newest is not working. Things have gotten way way worse than better. Unbelievable sadness and not happy with life. There is so very much I have to be thankful for. Why does this happen to me? Is it because of the horrible mistake I made 14 years ago? Why do I live this way.......
Obviously, this whole healing deal is going to a long, long, long process. I do believe though that I am on the right track. I will get to a place where I feel I have healed my past and forgiven myself. I will not ever give up on my hope, it is all I have....
I haven't gotten around to writing the letter my counselor suggested. I will though... soon enough.
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